“Artistic growth is, more than it is anything else,
a refining of the sense of truthfulness.
Here I am this Monday morning trying hard to get on track and be productive in my creative space. It's 8:58. I've been up since 6:30. I'm dressed. Which is not always a given by 9:00.
I've been on Blogger and Etsy looking for connections and advice. My 19 year old, special-needs daughter has gotten on her bus and headed for a fun day at her day program. The kitchen floor is swept. The turkey carcus is in the dumpster. (Leftover from Thursday's family dinner.) The lid is off the yogurt container in which I store paint for current projects. (It's been off for over an hour but has not been visited by a paint brush yet.) Oh well.
I could go on. You get the idea. I look around my little sanctuary here and I have to laugh. It's not the kind of laugh that really reflects something funny. It's more like: Is this how most people like me start their day? My room is cluttered with thrift store finds. In the process projects. Paperwork for my kids that needs to be completed and filed or sent. Books that I'm reading. Journals that reflect my ideas, thoughts and business directives.
After a little while of feeling like I'm spinning my wheels, I regain my peace and focus. I realize that this might not be typical for everyone. But it's my world. My season. And it's ok!
And though it seems like I'm not moving forward, there are small steps and little victories.
I am thankful that:
~my creative space is coming along
~my husband is incredibly supportive
~everything is collective and adds to my learning and who I am
~there are so many people who are willing to share their expertise and encouragement.. WOW!! THANK YOU...
~I can see how God is directing my path
~I can be myself
~life is beautiful and today has so much to be embraced. I'm learning
~in my heart there is a vision
~there are a couple of places that are carrying my offerings and they are selling
~vulnerability keeps me humble
Being a very sensitive person sometimes makes success hard. I take things personally that I shouldn't.
So reflecting and reminding myself of the positives and staying focused on what the truth is, is very important to me. No. Actually, it's absolutely necessary. These posts I write are a good way to look back and remember the journey and hopefully, they will also be an encouragement to someone else.
Thank you for stopping by.
Blessings to you,